Enlightment

When I decided to start this blog, it took me a few days to actually submit my first post.  I wasn't sure what I should say, how I wanted it to go, etc.  Then, I stumble upon this on a new blog I have been reading, Anonymous Fat Girl.  This days post was a guest post by Cammy and it REALLY spoke to me. 

It is all about how we treat our friends better than we treat ourselves.  We forgive our friends for their mess-ups and encourage them when they are down and speak kindly to them, but in the same way, we treat ourselves like crap.

I confess that I am SO guilty of this.  Lately, my self-image is worse than it has ever been.  I sometimes get so bothered by my previous almost-successes (read failures) that I can't stand ME.  While I have known that this is something I need to work on, I have never taken any steps to actually change my thoughts and feelings about myself.....until I read this. It is so true, especially for me.  I can motivate and cheer on and console every friend I have, but when it comes to myself, I am my own offender. 

From this day on, I have decided to treat ME better.  I want to be my own best friend.  I want to find joy within myself, not seek it out from others.  I will no longer hold ME back. 

In some ways, I have already started this.  I am running again, I am eating better (not perfect, but definitely better), and I am working on positive self-talk.  I'm a work-in-progress.

Didn't get here overnight, so I certainly won't change overnight.  I am in it for the long haul this time, so bring it on..........

I have a feeling that THIS is the beginning of a beautiful friendship.