In just 12 hours, I will be starting my first race in over TWO years. I must say I am feeling lots of things. I am excited and nervous and anxious and hopeful and worried all at the same time.
Excited because well, as I said, this is my first race in over two years. I have missed this for way too long. I have wanted to get back to this for way too long. AND, last week, I ran the practice 3.1 with T a week ago and it went almost TOO well.
Nervous because..... I really don't really need a reason for nervous. I am always nervous before I run. I usually get in the middle of a race and think, "Why do I do this?!?!? This is not FUN!!" I will simply call it stage fright.
Anxious to get it started. Anxious to get it over with. Also, a little performance anxiety too, I think.
Hopeful that this will be the race that I don't think, "Why do I do this?!?!? This is not FUN!!" I want this to be fun. I mean, its my comeback race. I need it to be FUN! I am not worried about this though. I will have Mer at my side and T and G racing me to the finish. How can it not be??
Worried because I have not run at all this week because I have been working instead. Worried because I have not trained wonderfully for this race. I am a little worried of what if. What if my body is tired. What if it is too tough. What if I get too excited and start too fast and then can't finish strong. What if - What if - What if........
Regardless, I am going to get up in the morning and run the best race I can. I will run it all. I will have fun. I will finish strong. I will do it well.
"Racing teaches us to challenge ourselves. It teaches us to push beyond where we thought we could go. It helps us to find out what we are made of. This is what we do. This is what it's all about."
~PattiSue Plumer, U.S. Olympian